cros: Blog

Im tired...

cros — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 13:21:09 +0000

i been in this orginization called the marine corp for almost 2 years now and quite frankly im tired of everything. the people watchg my every move at the internet cafe the stupid rules. everything the little things. i cant walk and chew gum WTF! i quit i'll be a free man soon enough. word of advice dont join STAY FREE!

Hey baby whats your sign...

cros — Wed, 28 Nov 2007 05:24:59 +0000

I bet everyone has heard this one. Horoscopes a funny little message that some people live and die by. Others think it is all bull shit. Well I'm here to say its real from what I have seen.

Theory: Horoscopes are accurate.

Experiment: I live out my life and the next morning I check my horoscope for the day before. Funny part is they have been correct everytime. Their is no way.

Example: I get a random phone call from an unlisted number. Its my buddy I met in Korea. I owe him some cash from the ipod I bought from him. (80gig w/ 10586 songs) The next day I was sitting at work bored. So I just checked my horoscope on yahoo. It said "you will have an unexpected bill". I thought it was wrong because I paid him the day before. I then realized it was from the day prior because I am in Japan and their is a time difference. Coincidence?

I repeated the experiment for a week and it proved my theory correct. In fact I was getting pissed off at work and was going to give the boss my two cents but, he was out all day. The next morning my horoscope reads " you will have problems with those in charge. They think they know everything but, they know nothing. Do not let this anger cause an outburst. It could have unforseen consequences". Coincidence?

I just think its weird. Maybe I'm just weird. You decide...

Why can't I turn off the ipod...

cros — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 00:38:40 +0000

I just wanted to buy a new laptop. I went out to the store got one and was headed home to hook it up. I got a phone call from my friend telling me to meet him somewhere. I really wasn't in the mood to do anything. I kinda "gave up" on things. He told me I really should go. I just decided "Why not?" Thats the day it started...

1st meeting:
I showed up and as I walked in I was greeted by my friend, his girlfriend and six of her single friends. No it was not christmas. I began the "game" of socializing with these beautiful ladies. Then I made a decision to focus on one in particular she was the target. We had a good time but, something just did not click.

2nd meeting:
We were at a club this time. Almost all of the ladies were there as well. (Let the "games" begin) A few drinks in I noticed that the "target" was missing. I soon found out that while she had a lot of drinks she was by no means a drinker. She was passed out. Her friend brought her home. One would think "ok, then that means 3rd meeting" No, this one gets better. It was just my friend his girl and another girl. This one was different. She was shy, quiet, decisive but undeniably beautiful. As odd as it may sound I was drawn into her personality first. All we did was talk. However once we reached the dance floor it was clear she could be on the cover of some magazine. The night went great. We left the club and...well now the rest is on a need to know basis....

I continued to see her. Soon it became obvious to all of her friends that we had "something". I was a rookie in the game so to speak and didn't realize it then.

Skip ahead a while and she drops a bomb. She is attending college in a place far away from me. She didn't want to go. She promised her parents she would get her education and I utterly refused to let her throw away her education for me. As hard as it was I let her go. We swore we would meet again...

We kept in contact. We spoke to each other everyday. Things began to slow down. After a few months she began to act strange. The calls came few and far between. One day she dropped the second bomb. "We should just be friends" Yeah, I felt a piece of my soul die but I was determined not to let it stop me as difficult as it seemed.

Time has past since then. I always tell myself I'm over her. I think about her although I try not to. Every night I go to sleep I turn on my ipod and always seem to listen to the R&B love songs. Im not even into that music. I never seem to turn it off. These songs remind me of her. How can I forget?

Although I feel like I moved on I know I didn't. Even worse I agree with Ne-Yo. Why can't I turn off the radio(ipod)?

Live free or die...HARD!

cros — Tue, 20 Nov 2007 01:47:35 +0000

Life is short. Unless you are immortal that is. So do what you want to do. People are always complaining about something. Well its your life and ultimately your choice. If you want to quit you job and go paint all day you can. Granted you might go bankrupt but hey atleast you will be happy. If something is bad leave. If its cold put on a jacket. If your bored go skydiving. As cliche as this sounds just follow your dreams. Hell, if I can do it anyone can. I always wanted to go to Japan now I live here. NIKE says "Just Do it" and Bruce Willis says...

"Live Free or Die........HARD!"

Kanye is right...

cros — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 23:55:52 +0000

When I was younger my sister always went out. To parties, clubs, the mall. I was just a fat lonely gamer at the time. I always told her I would never go out to clubs and parties whats the point? Now I'm a completely different person and I enjoy doing the things I said I never would. Its kinda funny how that works out. I guess thats what happens when you drop 70 pounds, become a Marine and move to Japan. Living this new life has changed me completely. I am a new person. When I stop and think about it I cant believe how different I am.

"Everything I'm not made me everything I am" -Kanye West

the soft side of a trained killer...

cros — Wed, 07 Nov 2007 06:16:05 +0000

I woke up, not with a cold, or next to a stranger but, with something else. A burning ambition to succed. I want to accomplish everything. I want to go everywhere. I just want to do something. I have all of this energy. What can I do? write a book, read a book, steal cars, sky dive, or maybe defuse a bomb. I don't know but, since I can't find it I have a better idea. I will focus all of this positive energy on one person. She will most likely never see this but, I know its here posted and thats good enough for me....

rollercoasters make me hurl...

cros — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 04:17:08 +0000

Life is a rollercoaster, the ups and downs and rounds and rounds. Can you handle the ride? It is difficult at times to live when things can't possibly get any worse then in theory they can only get better right?

Wondering why you should take advice from me? well my rollercoaster of life is at rock bottom but, im happy.

Lets recap shall we? I have been separated from all friends and family for about nine months. I have been forced to make new friends or live a life of isolation. I learned that drinking half of everything in a bar and getting picked up by military police is not fun. I jumped head first into a long distant relationship and got my soul crushed by her in a e-mail. To top it off I have been stranded and abandoned in South Korea by the Marine corp. If I can still smile then everyone else should too...

Chris

Someday......

cros — Mon, 05 Nov 2007 05:56:32 +0000

I have been in the US marine corp for awhile now. I have been lied to multiple times within the last week. I have been abandoned and completely disregarded by my command. I can honestly say this orginization is not what it appears to be. Someday I will be free from this hell. Someday......