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This Mask I Wear

sind3r3lla — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 18:42:11 +0000

This mask i wear, you gave to me
one winter night beneath the trees;
its black and blue enshrouds my life,
surrounds my eyes and blinds my sight.

This mask i wear pretends i'm here,
and hides me from the awful fear
that you might find the heart of me
and take that too, beneath the trees.

This mask i wear to hide the pain.
It's all I have to keep me sane.
I just fell down, I'm told to tell.
There are no words to stop this hell.

This mask I pray to god for why
he hates me so to watch me die
a little more with every night
this man comes in and rapes my life.

But little girls grow up, my friend
and learn the wicked ways of men.
and this mask i wear comes off the day

This mask i wear lays on your grave.

-Strangers in Paradise, Terry Moore

Desperation

sind3r3lla — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 18:53:27 +0000

"Desperation is the raw material of drastic change. Only those who can leave behind everything they have ever believed in can hope to escape." -William S. Burroughs

thought for the day...

sind3r3lla — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 20:36:58 +0000

“"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?”-aliceinwonderland :D

you might be a masochist when...

sind3r3lla — Sun, 08 Jun 2008 06:20:53 +0000

you make up cheezzzzzzy rhyming poems in the shower after washing the blood from your wounds....

it goes something like this:

I love it when you dominate
even better when you pull my hair
I love it when you sink your teeth in me
leave a mark or leave it bare

.FIN.

the male persuasion-part 2

sind3r3lla — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 07:46:59 +0000

So, the man i'm seeing....
It's has been interesting so far.....
We've had many a drunken nights, watched strippers together, spoken about our fears and our life, had HOTMAKEMESORETHENEXTMORNINGWITHBRUISESTHATHURTSOGOODSEX, and have gone out for lunch and coffee.
Still, something isn't falling into place. I can't seem to grasp what that something could be...
But, for now, I will roll with the punches and let it play out the way it goes. I'll leave this one up to the wind, and see where it takes me.

FIN.

-A

the male persuasion...

sind3r3lla — Tue, 20 May 2008 17:42:04 +0000

a new person has entered my life.
a male.
mentally, emotionally and physically inerested.

He told me, "If you weave the spell, i'll provide the magic".

What does one reply to that?
<3
intrigued me

Lost but I"m free!!!

sind3r3lla — Sun, 18 May 2008 04:15:13 +0000

Here I am at trig.com, (thankyou sexylex!!!!!!!!!!!) In hopes to meet some good people. There is a lack around here where i'm from. I've lived here for over a year and have found less than a handful.

Help me out here folks.

kthanks.

<3
A